Young men go to war. Sometimes because they have to, sometimes because they want to, always they feel they are supposed to. This comes from the sad, layered stories of life which over the centuries
have seen courage confused with picking up arms, and cowardice confused with laying them down.
Here I am! It’s so easy to go from one site to another on the Internet and not even remember where you started. That’s how I am, anyway. So, however you found me, I am glad you’re here! I often I have difficulty remaining focused so please don’t expect each post to relate to the one before. I have too many interests and too little time so……
If you are a knitter, you might want to stick around and see some of the crazy mistakes I make (and fix) and we can console each other. I am currently working on a cardigan that has been quite a challenge. You’ll see it soon. I love the yarn…it is a tape yarn from Lang called Sol Degrade. It’s a summer-weight yarn so I’m sure I’ll finish it by November.
If you love dogs, you will definitely see and hear about mine. In fact, you might get more that you bargained for, as some of my friends believe I was a dog in a previous life. Caring for my four dogs (all rescues) and spending some time with our dachshund rescue makes my heart sing. My fur family includes:
- Brittany mix named Allie and she is 11 years old.
- Toy poodle named Sophie and she is 15+ years old.
- Dachshund named Charlie and he is 7 years old.
- Dachshund named Jack and he is 11+ years old. He is technically my foster dog, but at his age, I’m pretty sure he’ll stay with me. And that is great!
I’ll let you know about books or magazines I’ve read and food that is yummy and probably is not on any “healthy eating” list. Sometimes I try to eat only food that is good for my body and then other times I say #&^% it, I’m going to enjoy it while I can.
And I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I don’t like to talk about it much and I rarely tell anyone how I really feel physically because I don’t want the pity looks and, honestly, I don’t like to think about it myself. But, I do want you to know my reality so maybe if I write about it here it will help us both. I’ve made a lot of changes in my life to help me live with this chronic disease and that’s really what it’s all about, right? Living! I am reclaiming my life!
Oh look! There goes a squirrel!
Career-wise, I was always very driven. Starting with a bachelor’s degree in Accounting and a job at a public accounting firm in a small midwestern city, I progressed through a couple of great career moves, putting in a ton of hours and adding to my list of accomplishments. Except I had a vague feeling that something was just not right and realized that, even on a good day, I had low level pain all over.
I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia in 1996. And a few years later with Osteoarthritis. And at some point after that with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, although my primary care physician never told me when he added it to my list of diagnoses. By 2006, I was in such a state of exhaustion and burn-out that I could no longer work full-time. I quit my job (which I loved) and slept a lot.
Two months later I began working part-time at our local animal shelter and discovered a new passion. I started to foster dogs on a short-term basis to improve their socialization or allow to them recover from illness or injury. I had found a new calling! Later, I joined a dachshund rescue and volunteered with them when I was able. I could make short transports, make home visits in the area or help with fund-raising and marketing.
Through fostering, I adopted a double-dapple dachshund with the shortest hair I’ve ever seen! Charlie was cold all the time, so I decided to relearn the art/skill of knitting. I had not knitted since I was ten, but the basics came back to me rather quickly thanks to YouTube. I immersed myself in it and found knitting was a craft I could do on all but my worst days. I am not the most accomplished knitter in my circle, but I do love it and I keep learning.
I also found an amazing support system in the Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia Self-Help program. It has truly been a lifeline for me and I am slowly learning a new way to live and to halt the push and crash cycle. Not only does their website have a first-rate library, but the classes and email groups sustain my spirit and give me strength and hope.
I am reclaiming my life. And, oh look! There goes a squirrel!
Who I Am…
I’m a married fifty-something although it seems like I should only be 28 years old. I have four dogs and I have worked in rescue for almost 10 years. I have a part-time job at the community college and love working with the students as an academic advisor. I have three younger sisters and am very fortunate that both my parents are still alive and are in reasonably good health. I live in Central Nebraska and love it, except when I’m missing my family since all of them live in other states. I love to read and knit and I watch way too much TV.
Why I’m Here…
I plan to write about my dogs and experiences with rescue. That is what makes my heart sing! Unfortunately, I have yet to find a way to make that pay…dogs seem to cost money, not make it.
I love love, love to knit especially when I’m at home and have at least one dog by my side, snoozing away. So you’ll probably read about that, as well as books I’ve read and love, food I’ve eaten that is yummy, and other tidbits of my life.
I’ll probably write something controversial now and then, because some issues are just too important to me and I just can’t stay quiet. I don’t expect that I’ll change anyone’s opinion, but maybe writing about it will keep my head from exploding.
And I’ll write about reclaiming my life while living with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Hence the blog title. I hope that by sharing my experience, strength and hope someone may be able to reclaim their life, too. Not that I’m done doing that.
If you haven’t guessed it yet, my thoughts tend to flit around faster than a squirrel. So, if you are up for my ramblings, I’d love to hear from you. Oh look! There goes a squirrel!